Polarity
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It has been a while since I posted. By a while, I mean six months, oopsies.
I will be honest though, every time I sat down to blog, it was from a place of frustration. I haven’t really had a whole lot of positive things to say.
I didn’t want my anger with the current state of the world, my irritation with my personal/love life, and my annoyance with many things at work — to impact individuals who are reading. I will for sure be writing about those things, but I need it to be productive and not just me writing to complain.
When I started writing this entry, I wanted to talk about how I have been countering the bad feelings. In December, I wrote about staying in Houston and how I was going to be more intentional with my actions, so you can read that entry if you want to recap that, but I also said I was going to get serious about what makes my heart full. And so here I am!
Things that I can do to make my heart happy :
Walks
Cleaning my home
Pilates
Journaling (private)
Pinterest
Homemade meals
Posting on my IG story to my favorite music
Baby turtles
In bed before 8:30 pm, up before 6:30 am
Farmers markets
Designing various things: courses, Etsy items, itineraries, lookbooks, etc.
Helping a stranger
These may seem so basic and like they are everyday things — but if I don’t do at least some of them consistently, I get into super low spirits and am miserable to be around. Some of the activities are more interactive than others, and what I do really depends on the space I am in.
With that said, I won’t lie to you and say that the ‘goods’ are a perfect solution because I have my moments where I don’t leave my bed for whole days at a time, I drink a biiiiit too much alcohol, I say yes to a date with a man who should never even breathe the same air as me (dramatic), I don’t exercise, I dont nourish myself properly, I don’t have work/life balance — the list can go on. What matters, though, is not letting that darkness consume my life.
If you don’t have intentional goods to counter your bads, it would do you wonders to find a few. You may be thinking, well, Baylee, I don’t have the time because I have xyz to do…there is always time. You don’t have boundaries babes — but that’s something we can talk about another day.
xoxx,
B
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